Rin Tohsaka
Hi, you've reached Rin Tohsaka. Sorry I missed your call; my phone and I are currently playing hide and seek, and I'm sad to say it's winning!
Please leave your name, number, and a brief message, and I promise to call you back. Thank you.
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[So she doesn't offer an apology, but in turn neither asks for one of him either. To her, this is the smoothest way to handle the situation. The most fair to both parties.
A part of her wonders why she even cares so much about fairness when it comes to this man, when she's reminded of the hot-tempered child she saw in her memories. Right. As an adult, she can't get caught up and let that mood sway her. But reminded of it, she does wonder...]
Can I ask you something out of the blue?
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[ "I suppose" isn't the same as saying "I just." He's getting better at this and isn't sure whether he should be worried how he is skirting around his own moralities to ensure that he doesn't feel compelled to say what is really going on. ]
Go right ahead.
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Did you ever visit Japan when Sakura and I were younger? About fifteen years ago, maybe?
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No. I've lived here since I moved in my teens. Your father kept in touch with me, however. I always wondered why he would worry so much about his wayward kouhai, but I suppose that was just his way.
Why are you curious about such old stories?
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No particular reason. My mind wandered the other day, and I thought I might have recalled chatting with you when I was little. But if you never left Recolle, that couldn't have happened. It must have been a memory of my past self.
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What happened in your memory, Rin?
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There was someone who resembled you closely... Like you, but younger. Or maybe that was just the haircut? It was trimmed sensibly, so he didn't look like a grease-monkey. Anyways.
I did call you—or him, rather—by a different name. It was strange... There was something serious afoot, because it seemed my mother and I had to move out of the house for a while. It wasn't safe for us to stay there.
...I think they were expecting a fight. It didn't sound like you or my father would be coming with us.
[Also her child self yelled a lot.]
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Is that so? [ Well, he shouldn't hide it. ] That was, indeed, a memory from another past of ours. I have acquired one, as well. I was worried about telling you about it due to the contents of it.
You are in the middle of a mission right now. I do not wish to cause you any stress while you are attempting to complete what you're doing. But it seems like you are enjoying causing me quite a bit of stress. [ He steals the words of someone else, as he thinks of what he will tell Rin. ]
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So what, this is your way of getting back at me?
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It's my attempt to watch over you since my other self knew you as a child. It gives me an odd feeling. [ Guilt. The feeling is guilt. ] But I am serious that I will not tell you the contents of the memory until you return. I don't want to hear you've done anything impulsive.
Please allow me to look after you this once in place of your father.
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[But he's right that if it's as bad as he thinks, better not to distract her with it now. She seems to accept that as well, as she doesn't press him more than that.
And can I say good fucking call because given this is happening on the 11th, the timing couldn't have been worse if Kei had decided otherwise. Good job, man. Rin probably won't get shot by a bolt of lightning now.
Beyond that though, she'll never admit such a sappy request gets to her... But it does. She...]
...I wish I could talk to him.
I don't need looking after, so you know. Not by him, or by you. But it's been so long since I've called, I'm sure he's worried. I didn't mean for that.
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[ He hums over those words. ]
I also wish I could speak with him. I'm certain my silence is also worrying him. Indeed, I would sometimes merely call him to let him know that I hadn't seen you two in awhile and ask if he wanted me to check on you both. [ Kei sees nothing wrong in telling her this, because they are sharing in concerns. ] Your father really loves you both.
If you don't mean for that, please don't give me anymore stories of reckless behavior. And it isn't about looking after you because you are helpless. It isn't about attempting to use the status as an "adult" over you. It is because you are cared for by others, and we wish you well.
The gentleness and preferential treatment is how most show they care for someone, Rin.
Not that they want to watch over someone like they are a child.
1/3
I know.
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Doesn't she? In bouts of homesickness, when she misses the things she took for granted.
Clean sheets still warm from the dryer; a good meal magically waiting for her, courtesy of her mother. Those rare nights father didn't have business somewhere, and they could catch up and chat about day-to-day things. His advice was worth as much as gold. Worth the wait.
Her family loves her. Of course she knows that.
Knowing the truth she hasn't shared with them, or Kei, or Sakura, the shame is thick enough to choke on.]
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[That's all she follows up with in the end. Undecided, at the least she can make good on his specific wording for now: no more stories.]
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You always do your best, Rin.
That is why I'm certain your father is proud of you, as much as I am.
Well, I believe I have taken up enough of your time. So if I may say it one more time: Stay safe until you come home.
[ He doesn't feel like this is easing his guilt at all. Kei doesn't quite understand the reason why he feels that way. He's doing what he has always intended to do with the girls. With Sakura, he is attempting to build her into someone made of stone and steel -- the strength that the princess desires, can be obtained. With Rin, he is attempting to fill her with softness and gentleness -- the weakness that she has never allowed herself to feel.
Through this, he believes their happiness can be obtained. Because they can escape what they believe is their only routes and find something for themselves. Yes, that is what he has decided, but he has always stopped himself -- Tohsaka-senpai would not approve if he realized what he was doing. If he could tell their father what he was doing, there would be an ensuing conversation would allow him a perspective that he could not take due to his lack of empathy and inability to completely sympathize with others. Kei may lack both of those things, but his morals would realize just what he was doing and stop.
But without being able to talk to him... isn't what he doing "good?" Won't it be "good" in the end? Yes, he believes that it will. Yet he has a foreboding feeling, as well. ]