[The verdicts keep falling like blades, so swift that Sakura has no time to brace for them. Her head jerks into a bow as if she felt the blow from behind. The words cut to the bone and nearly sever her concentration.
Growing testy at her reluctance to act, the worms dig further into her nerves.
If she willed it, she could jump and cut the distance between them, snap her hands around Rin's neck, or simply drive a spell through the girl's chest simply because her body craves a river of blood. A sacrifice to satisfy. That alone would give her the strength to fight back her Crest for a long while. And she's already been told how people disappear from the castle all the time.
-- it's so hard - she can't tell if the thoughts are hers anymore, or if the worms are egging on whatever emotion will lead to results. At some point she even shuts her eyes, blocks out the sunlight and grits her teeth until her jaw aches.
Breathe. Please, you have to breathe--]
I-- [Her breath hitches and Sakura can't understand why her mind hopes that Rin will read it as shame rather than the strain of keeping the worms quiet] I didn't--
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Growing testy at her reluctance to act, the worms dig further into her nerves.
If she willed it, she could jump and cut the distance between them, snap her hands around Rin's neck, or simply drive a spell through the girl's chest simply because her body craves a river of blood. A sacrifice to satisfy. That alone would give her the strength to fight back her Crest for a long while. And she's already been told how people disappear from the castle all the time.
-- it's so hard - she can't tell if the thoughts are hers anymore, or if the worms are egging on whatever emotion will lead to results. At some point she even shuts her eyes, blocks out the sunlight and grits her teeth until her jaw aches.
Breathe. Please, you have to breathe--]
I-- [Her breath hitches and Sakura can't understand why her mind hopes that Rin will read it as shame rather than the strain of keeping the worms quiet] I didn't--